A little thought of the day

Just hang up the phone with dear, im suppose to go sleep now, or at least read a bit of my books and go sleep, but i think i'm too awake for that, and i m too hungry also. So while waiting for the water to boil (so i can cook my cup noodles), i shall blog a little bit.

I don't know it's me feeling a bit emo today or it's the r/s that's getting out of the honey moon? We are still very loving, but mayb dear is losing on the momentum again?

I don't know, he didn't blog today, when he always dose that everyday, even if its just a few lines...but mayb bcoz he is too tired, finally he has met up with alp for supper and he has been out with me since late afternoon.

He didnt chat with me for too long either...i could tell that his voice sounded really tired over the phone, so i told him to go sleep... when i was super awake, i just hope he could at least kept me companied till i feel a little sleepy... since i had a lot of things that i wan to share with him... and i would probably forget about those things tmr morning when i wake up...

Ya, and i'm hungry...now i m waiting for my cup noodle to be cooked...
Ya, we are suppose to have supper juz now, i mean, pratas...but since alp suddenly asked if he wanna supper with him tonight, and thinking of the fact that he dosent really meet alp that often and he meets me like every other day, i told him to go ahead with alp and i'll just go home...since we had a pretty filling dinner. But now i'm really hungry, i just wish he could be there to bring me some food... mayb i m too demanding... -_-

Oh well... I don't know why am i so cranky today, it's just weird that i will be hit by a cranky mood on the day when i go out with my dear...or mayb i'm on PMS...ya, the irritating 5 days of the mth... but i think i don't have PMS tempers... i just feel emo....easily...

Or mayb he is really getting slack... well... i still love him alot, and hope him to b with me every other day, hope him to be there when i ever needs him. hope him to coax me to sleep, hope him to fill my hungry stomach... hope and hope and hope... blah blah blah...

Ya...i'm in a cranky mood...and i m getting crazy...
Think i need to see a doctor...yup... i can go see Dr. House while having my noodle...hope the sleeping bugs visit me now!!!

random thoughts

A thought just striked me:

I think a lot of people don't like me.
Oh well, i mean those people that i have hurt over the time.

Come to think about it, i use to have no enermies back in Secondary and JC days, but when i enter university, suddenly the world seems so complicated. With love, it comes pain.

A lot of my friends have a couple of ex-es, or have hurt some1 who use to like them. Some of them still remain as friends with their ex-es, some just pass off as strangers...like me?

It never feel good to hurt anyone, but when something that are no longer there, it means it's no longer there, no point keep things going. And over the time and over diff r/s, i slowly learn on how should things work btw a guy and a girl, how should a guy treats u and what do you deserve. I suppose i got to pay something for these things that i have learnt over the time.

Anyway, i believe this time, i will not upset any1 anymore.
No more playful time, i had enough of being treated like a precious, i had enough of the agony of worrying for those that i have hurt.

I believe this time i will have a long lasting happy ending. Like what they said, i think i found where i belong =)

ilu bao bei.

I'm kindda pissed.
Yes...at 2am in the morning!!!

So her friend took my money away, not the 1st time, but the 2nd time.
Seriously, once i find any evidence that it's her friends that did it!! I'm really gonna to tell her that...

It's her FUCKING friend's fault, if she is generous enough, that's her problem, but it is HER FRIEND, not my friend, i have no responsibility to take care of HER FRIEND's NEED!!!

AND IF HER FRIENDS HAS DONE SOMETHING WRONG, PLEASE FUCKING TAKE THE DAMN RESPONSIBILITY. 3 dollars i can brush it off and let it go, BUT 10 DOLLARS??? not the 1st time but the 2nd time!!!

I WILL REALLY SLAM IT AT HER FACE AND ASK HER TO RETURN THE DAMN MONEY BACK TO ME!!!

MONEY NO ENOUGH 2

Had a nice dinner at Taka, 1st time having dinner sitting beside the fountain in Taka =) It was really sweet and awesome, simple yet romantic =)

My dear is having some bonding session with my cat =) so lovely!!

Anyway, i went to catch money not enough 2.

Now that's something new, cause i never had a liking to local movies, the last local movie i watched was ah long pte ltd, which was not bad at all. But this money no enough 2 totally give me a new prospective of local movies!!

As many people have told me, the movie was indeed touching. I cried really badly when i saw the scene where the grandma pulled out her own life support just to save her grand-daughter. If you asking what's the best part of the movie? I'd say its the love and more loves shown inside the movie.

Other parts of the movie was funny, but besides that, there isnt much for people to remember after watching. It's just sth like you laughed inside the cenima and you'll forget about what you laughed at when you walk out of the cenima.

I'm the only child, so definitely pushing the mother around among the siblings will never occure to me. But i love my parents so much and i swear upon my life that i will take care of them and love them till the day they leave this world. I will never let my mother shed any tear b4 she leaves... even if she dose cry, it muz b bcoz she is sad that she is gonna to leave me but not bcoz she has been mistreated or abused. And i will definitely treat my mother-in-law well too... i will never be like any of the mean daught-in-laws in the movie. It pinches my heart so badly when i see the tears in the grandma's eye before she pulled her life support out... It just saddens me to see things like that =(

Thanks bao bei for wiping my tears off in the dark, and hugging me so tightly =)

humm...?

Sometimes, i wonder....

If i am really boring.

At least i feel that way when i'm with my gang.

They are nice and funny ppl, but seriously, i think they think that im boring too.
It kindda sad at times when i m being ignored....

Tsk tsk...
moody...
miss my boy...
tsk tsk

Happy Day!!

How long is your Honey moon period in the relationship?

I thought mine was over, but obviously it's not!

We are still arguing over who love who more everyday,

I thought, this is really sweet. Maybe the honey moon could last for years to come!!

Anyway, met dear at 9++ for supper and walk around. It was always sweet when he assures me that he loves me a lot and will always love me =)

Oh ya, he pop a "surprise" for me today. Ok it's not a surprise, he actually asked my oponion on which color do i want for the bag. But still, he was sweet or even too sweet to buy a BURBERRY for SCHOOLBAG. Tell me about it, i wont even wan to carry it around, for the fact that it's too expensive!!!!

He claimed that this is our 11th mth, 13th mth, 14th mth and teacher's day present!! How cute can he get, it totally melt my heart.

11th mth: it's 1 more mth to our 1 year anniversary.

13th mth: He beats my ex bf (my previous r/s was around 13 mth++)

14th mth: He will be the longest bf i ever had.

teachers' day: coz i m a tuition teacher -_-

What retarded reasons, but its really really sweet. My silly boy has a habit of giving be-earlied presents, i still rem our 1st week tgt, he gave me our 1st mth anniversary presents already, so he can keep me for at least a mth? silly baby =)

i love you so super much!!!

Self Reflection

Has doen some self reflection of myself, i think i have been over reacting and feeling too insecure.

Although dear keep saying that he dosen't mind, but i guess it wasnt a good feeling not to be trusted afterall.

I trust my baby !!

As we march towards our first year anniversary, there will be many many good times ahead =)

ilu baby =)

i m lazy, lazy to update...
ya...that's about it

iloveyou dear =)
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all fine =)

It's all good now...

And i know i m grumpy at times!!!

I was really upset when dear say he has to rush home after dinner, but i still went out with him, coz he will be all alone to meet those buyers. And it proves to be a good decision, even if we only met for a few hour, its really an awesome 1. We watched the grand final of WCG dota competition, China vs Newzeland.... aka EHOME vs MCC...

I must say those dota players are really awesome!! I have never seen any1 who has so much teamwork as the china teams... they played an almost flawless game showcasing the audiance nothing but pure hardcore teamworks!!! AWESOME!!!!!

So i wan to try DK tonight!!! DK FTW!!!! =)

Found some really pretty dark elf pictures....really fancinating!!! =)

1st day of school

First day of school....

I was still dreading it yesterday, but when i reach school and met my gangs, it felt so refreshed and i think i m getting into the mood for schooling again. And seriously, i miss schools now...haha =)

HQ came back from US with 3 other US babes...oppss...but i didnt get to see all of them, anyway, she brought back loads of sweets for us..... Super yummy =) and so nice of her!!


After some sweets sharing, we celebrated CheeWee's bday, haha....i have to admit, our guys failed to sabo him today.... but still it was fun nonetheless =)

Oh ya, and the pressie from the boys from NanJing... so sweet of them to rem all of us and made customized shirt for all of the girls =)

Here is mine, look like me???
Masks from WL and a coin box =)

Not to forget pressies from bao bei!!!

He went out with his gay pal on sunday, so he bought a USB lava lamp for me...it was so pretty in the dark!!!!

And lastly.... another of our old photos =)
The rare occasion dear actually smiles when he took photo =)
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boring day =(

I dug up some old photos, retro time =)

This is the photo we took tgt when we go for the southern ridge walk

It was so fun, walking, chatting and enjoying each other's company =)

Anyway

I nearly lost my cat today....

Normally my cat will not run too far from the house, most of the time, she will just lie down in front of the staircare and watch the corridor. Mayb she went after some lizard on the wall, all i know is before my mother turns in, she asked me where is NINI.... i was like " not in my room?"

That's it, we couldnt find her anywhere in the house nor in the corridor. She came to my house even before she could walk properly, other than the corridor, she has never step out anywhere further than that.... and i was sooooooooo afraid that i'm gonna to lose her....

After dropping a call to dear, i went out and decided to look for her ard the block. Just when i stepped down to the 5th floor, i saw my panic-striken kitty ran up 5th floor from 4th floor... the most interesting thing is she ran all the way to the doorstep of 05-404 which, is right at the btm of my unit. And mayb she realised that it's not the familiar household, she walked a circle and wanted to ran away, luckily i grabbed her b4 she rans off =)

She is probably really frightened, can see all her hair on the tail stood up and she grap my arms really tight, planting her claws into my cloths when i carry her up to my house. For 1 moment i tot she might be raped by some other male stray cats.... but mayb not, consider the fact that she won't allow such thing to happen.... she is too home breed and she is too frightened of the outside world!!!

Anyway, i really don't wanna lose her, she is now like a family member to us =)

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